Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Jillian turns two

"Isn't it funny how
day by day
nothing changes,
but when you look back
everything is different.
-C.S. Lewis

So it happened. My last baby turned two. Never again will I hold a brand new baby that I grew in my body. Never again will I spend endless sleepless nights nursing my baby back to sleep. Never again will I feel those movements inside my belly telling me it's baby gymnastics time. Never again will I ready a nursery, prepare older siblings, and wait months to meet my newest love. And never again will I witness all the many milestones that tick off ever so quickly those first two years. Mostly I am ok with this. I love our family dynamics and don't really wish to go backwards to the baby days. But there's something so bittersweet about closing the door on a chapter of your life with such finality.

So Jillian turned two.  Just like that. We celebrated her all weekend long. And by the end of it, she was able to blow out the candles all by herself.

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